Techa-Teck with Power system and Design Analysis.

Power System and design analysis !

What would the world have been, without a London EYE ! and without Golden Gate @ SF and without The mega structure shown on discovery. So i just wish I had some diploma or degree in some Civil, Mech or Electrical to design a MEGA POWER SYSTEM named after my mother and father :)

Today I came to know the field where my entourage research begins and I believe the things for which other scientist were laughed at, I too will have to face one !! But who knows I too may win award. I wont back-off just because I am not an engineer. :) I have started a deep research on this topic and believe that those who are trying to produce Electricity from gobar -gas, husk (THE USA GUY) and many more things I will use the manual power in the gigantic london eye ! SO what am I going to do is the shaft and the design and the power. Test the efficiency on the parameter of per unit Generation. The Power storage perfection. The supply unit set-up. The AC-DC change and the practical application. The strength test like GG. I need a mega builder or structure architect to help me in this thing. The day it will happen, Power System and design system can change a lot into machinery and even a technician can build an entirely different structure if he knows the general mechanism of tool and devices.Certain inventory that has been a serendipity of man has been a meagre thought of practical experiments at home.Insight like James Watt. Though I dont claim to be JamesWatt But who knows which kind of natural or unnatural happenings can make a great creation. Being a physics student at 2 yr grad, I used to listen about tactics going on to create a capturing system to store the lightning from thunders and all. And also, if one time lightning could be stored, can run the house of 100 for 1 hour with its 200 KV light supply. Enough to run a jet-pump to fetch a pale of water :).

For many times, coal finish funda has blown up search for uranium stored at places via INSAT and other satellites, to give a pseudo of finishing coal and the most important water supply. 98 percent of water is salty, jamming the process of electricity production at thermal stations. So thermal stations in India are also at the verge of closing threats.Meanwhile, companies are already preparing themselves to survive the cash crunch via unpaid electricity bills, stealing electricity, cutting wires of transmission that has made Indian Electricity stations and supply grids for bail packages. The amount is yet to be decided and can land into 10-11 arab rupees. Indian government that provides subsidy on even electricity bills can't fulfill the half cost incurred via actual electricity supply throughout. I wish I could stick a graph right here. I have misplaced it.

Therefore someone has to take this initiative of this thing. And matters invited for power systems and designs that can spark my research about it. Basically electrical supplies matter, transmission matters, Power generation matters and machine designs. My e-mail id is - nidhi983@gmail.com.

Regards

with 23 Enough is Enough

I know these days september is unusally bullying me in it's own ways but today am feeling a special type of freedom. Freedom, that I got by stopping,worrying about my ' future and its plans "

Why ?? is that a real great thing to do ????? Auh ! so you so much stressed that you stop planning for future, is it ?? I knw, i knw .......that are all the crap you gonna ask me after reading these lines.From Today 0ooooom--Mark It---- ooooo...from today I am going to stop all my future plans bring a big dustbin and throw it out!!!

From many days I am realizing that whatever I plan is just a failure-- when reality comes to me -- I say -- Oh Boss ! Yeh Sab toh mere plan mein tha hi nahi --!!

• 23 years now....I am .... and at this stage i should have been an MBAiite or MAiite or MEMiite from a good institution working with some good banner in other big cities ....Now look at me !! Am still a non-iite of any, that I just mentioned above. Where the hell are my plannings??
  
• At the age of 23 i should have been on to platform from where I could have seen how students miss there homely food, how they live alone , how does a BIG :-o city works, But look at me where I am ?? Hell yaar , where are my plannings.
  
• I thought of a wonderful winter this year, full of loads of excitement. All dumped and thrown. Where the hell, has my planning gone ??

All into dirt naa ! and now, look at me ! oo ! where I am writing a Blog on a lappy with the thoughts that all what I planned went into Dirt, shit, crap and dustbin.....How am I left ...a half killed person...too many dreams too much excitement but...nothings helping me out ....except the right time, for which, I have been waiting !!!! And this Lovely God ! is giving me some or the other lollies to feed and keep the crying baby silent for a while ! But , God , Oh Hello ! Baby needs the feed again :(......

Well today I realized , I know, all what I dreamt of, is not going to be true for next 5 6 years !! coz the things i have been dreaming of, is not a joke. It needs a lot of experience and research to even initiate such thought in order to build up a gigantic, panomaric view of it . Why can't I be a happier person? Why am I burning myself into Js and Rs itna much ki I am forgetting I am too young to do all this. Even every filmmaker cannot win an oscar at 23 and every scientist cannot win a noble at the age of 23. Lawrence Bragg, the youngest noble prize winner was 25 when he won it and that too with his father's association. Then today I DECIDED and I VOWED myself that from today, I am just going to live my Today's life. Enough is enough, I am not going to think what is going to happen in future and thats why today I came back home with all freshness after sitting at ghats for so much time i knew that When I will return back home, I will be a different , does not have to take tension about GRE, I will not search any good SOP or LOR today. I will not respond to my teacher's Tangent question for I have already told her I am not taking up the test. Will that prove me a less ambitious girl. No, not at all. Because, I ll plan, I plan And I'll plan and at the end either they'll reject my application or I'll loose patience about doing anything of such kind. SO, how does that prove am ambitious. Well I have my home country to do a lot of things with lot of options. I'll go for that.

Another aspect is the shitty J that I am doing. I swear my self today. I will never think plan or even work for my WHAT MY FUTURE WILL BE !!!!! I dont have a sister to marry kinda burden.I dont have a family to run. I am earning and i have saved so many bucks that i can live without hunger strike for another one year ! So why should I come back home with a tension of studying, finding, involving talking and things that are not going to lead me anywhere??

Oh ! this lil bit of practicality has helped me a lot. I am feeling so out of stress that I dont have to take tension of anything thats coming within two months and take my nerves away. Wuff !! Still i believe wherever I will be, I will be good.

And the shitty J even i get thrown out I will not cry. Reason being, I have learnt to be calm in most odd situations of my life. I have learnt that whatever bad is happening to me will HAPPEN to me at any cost. May my best relation ditch me, may I get a big pimple on my face tommorow, May my weight again increase to 5 years back kinda weight. I will be calm. Because I've put in a lot of effort. Now is the time to just relax and watch what is going to happen. Things that happened to me right from 31 august till date has been a great learning experience.

N'b.coz I plan so much for my future is the reason I get so much of hurt everytime. I will stop doing injustice to mysel this very day. I'll come back home with no thoughts of HAVE TO DO list. Because with 23 enough is enough. I stop planning for future and live my today. Taaki kal main doobara mood ke peeche yeh naa kahun... yaar !!!! milna toh isse abhi thaa maine iske chakkar mein apne past ko kyun kharaab kiya !! Lets make a good past which we can rejoice in future and be ready cause anything worse that has to happen will happen to you at any cost and you will not be able to stop it !!!

cheers !!

Helplessness !!

On a cozy winter morning, I was doing a show when I became so fond of a pet called bunny. Thats a synonym for rabbit and then I tried speaking on air. Guess what? in some days I was gifted one !!
But only recently I lost one bunny I kept for 10 months. Another is struggling for its existence. It's so painful to see this little soul being in so much pain. Reason being the loss of better half and the infection which was nearly curing but now health has become worse.He has stopped eating anything and he, who was so healthy even after hanni died, has now become a meagre bone structure. My first struggle to save him, began searching for a good hospital. I was nearly dead when I came to know Banaras doesn't have an all pets hospital. And almost all vets in Vns are Dog specialist. One dog specialist helped in rather more toxification giving external paraffin solution to them. I wish I had a little study paraffin being given to rabbits.It is not the medicine for rabbits that the doctor and I experimented for my babies. It was so painful to see my bachcha dead infront of me. His, no more active body, I dont think I will ever forget this year's september. For, it went worse. I cannot give good medication to my baby. Now, I can feel the pain of the mother who has no money to afford for the medicine of a her dying baby. Also want to beg those doctors who go on strike when the patient is dying. Please, dont do so. already there is less of a medication doctors and hospital beds as well. Millions of people are already infected with AIDS and there is no remedy for it. Helplessness even makes me more sick. May be there had been days, when I hadn't seen hanni banni even for a minute but when in pain, I feel discomfort when he is not infront of me.
Wherein, medical services are so poor, people do not donate eyes in order to follow the-non-iconoclast family rituals, bury those precious bones and eyes, such country is high on spending millions and crores of rupees searching a CM or a chandrayaan. When will this country get justice.

Unanswered Question Yet ! Many questions to question ! But no solution ! Helplessness you see !!

My First Fiction 55 --

Thanx to Priyesh for reviving and inspiring about this great thing...... Fiction 55

Herez my first Fiction 55... all those who want to know what is Fiction 55 please check wikipedia....

The swashbuckle Intro to......

I wrote Sapna’s tears, Rajeev’s letter,

Someone’s death, broken to peel,

I have been Raju’s new gift, lifelong token in Siddharth’s Box,

I have written the Preamble, I have been a juda-pin, Thought of words, Word of World and by the way I am a Pen. Sorry I forgot my introduction, that’s the end ....

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Howzatt ?

Susu @ 49

Hi there,

Writing after long time Because I was pretty busy with lots of stuff. Meanwhile september came up with lots of baddies again.

• Starting it, my bachcha my bunny died on 31 august, living me and his better half in sadness.
• I unnecessarily broke my left leg also. And it pains very badly whenever I walk.
• Event well planned well ideated did not draw sufficient execution.

But, these days am enjoying a lot ! guess why ! Coz i have been demotivated to such an extent that I dropped some very big plans but then again gained strength to fight that this not the end of the world! I have miles yet, to travel. I am not going to get demotivated or stopped by anything. I would also tell that from few days its been good to be at home. Somethings have settled wrt sister's admission and one part of mum's tension is over. Another, from 2 days, I have been meeting people who I've loved the most. My maternal aunt and uncle and their kiddos. Their girl is my bestest buddy. So, its been great fun to see them at home with a lot of chehel pehel. Although sis was detected with a kidney stone, she was rushed from Delhi to Varanasi, only to tell that reports do not confirm any such thing but but but these small issues brought us together after 3 long years. We burst out laughing at the dinning table when she said for sonography she was unable to make up the susu because she was not getting the susu built up on to blast the checking and the technician every ten minutes used to ask MADAM AAYA ?? lolzz....Cracked another fun was from bro ! who said isko susu karaane mein 49 rupees kharcha hua I said WTF was that, he said -- Arrey teen bottle bisleri pee gayi :P lolzz....in between technician used to continuosly question Madam Aaya ?? haha...She said hum parsaan ho gaye (pareshan in some bhojpuria term ) deidh baje se baithe baithe humko 4 30 pe susu aayi ! haha ! All technician were waiting waiting and then at 4 30 they said -- Madam lab band ho jaayega !! And then she finally decided she has build up some capacity of unbearale.
She told when first time she went for a sonography She didnt know the procedure of holding the susu :P...When she went to the technician..he said kholiye t shirt -- aapko toh aayi hi nahi hai ...haha ! she asked kya nahi aayi hai ??? He said susu !! :P ...then she all went long to hold the susu for 2 hours..... Meanwhile had a great party yesterday when Kirti and I, burst out the news that our hema is sneezing and coughing because of swine flu ! Had a blasting party yesterday. And also when i was there for sonography everybody was begging each other saying Bhaiya hummein jaane do nahi ab hum phool ke phatt jaayengey lolzzz!! One woman in burkha used open up her burkha and say Pehle hum jaayengey .... :P ...

But this susu event was really mind blowing --- Aapko bhi aaya hai ?? Madam-- kya -- Susu :P

Gone On the Song

Music is my life. trust me I can live without a human(Not full fledged praticality) but not without music in my life. Often on social networking websites, slam books and other chattable hobbies one asks for a favourite music. I can't decide sometimes because more or less I love all forms of music. Because I am a very moody person (but just for very short time now :) and the kind of music I listen to, totally depends on that particular MOOD ! But at all times there are some with reasonable reasons for liking it deeply truly and faithfully.And all those are as follows Hope I dont bore you.

1.Leja Leja Rey- Does anybody know, the Man in this video has travelled with me :) Varun Toorkey and we talked 1.5 years back when he invited me to his engagement in Meerut and we cracked jokes about Raawan ka Sasural, Meerut. But anyways this song is very nice. And at any mood I love this song and the Line --- Chahun paas paas aana koi dhuundh ke bahana tumhe apna maana, chahey ruthey yeh jamana, chahey maarey jagg tumko hai paana ...So firm in love. I wish i could sing this.

2.Ya Rabba dede koi jaan bhi agar--- Gawd 1 THIS was the FIRST SONG i HEARD on MIRCHI in ahmedabaad! when we all were going from Cama to Athka ...Gujarat ! and I was wishing this song would never end ! What an awesome song. I just went to see the movie for this song ONLY. I literally cried. Qudos to Kailaash. Nobody could have sung this as good as him.

3.No Surprize- Daughtry band created by an american idol winner, this is an amazing song i listen to, every morning. Its no surprize I wont be here tomorrow. I cant believe I am here today and the beginning of this song is just awesome.Touching one.

4.Kucch iss tarah - drives me crazy. Well to most of my friends and colleagues I have been inventor of this song :P Coz i found this song for very first time on youtube.It is because I was talking to my friend in Pakistan .' Ubaid' he told, a song in Atif Aslam's album has been removed THE DOORIE album consisted of this fantabulous song.

5.Down and Out--- A song gifted by makkadman.But thank him for this contribution.When I feel down, this song takes me out. Matches to this respect is the Puddle of Mudd's radiate too. But Tantric's the Best.

6.Love to see you Cry--- Enrique's appeal. Love to see him sing this.Followed unbeatables are- Push, Lover and rhythm divine.
7. Tere bin saanu soneya:- Rabbi's all time hit is a mesmorizing one. And has been my caller tune for unbeatable 6 months. I dont keep anything non-living with me for more than 2 3 months.
8. Maa Tujhe salaam and Tujhey Sab hai pata:- Adrenaline rushes and eyes water so I avoid the second song often.

9.Aa rey and Tune jo na Kaha--- recent hot favourites that inspires my way.Dunno why?

10.Tadap ho tum:- Baba rey ! I fall down and think of intimacy (yes ahem ahem)all time when i listen to this song. It was something i can't explain I just LOVE this song from movie Darling .
11. Ishq Bina--- Me, dressed in whites, wish to perform on this song at THE SIRI FORT Audi :).



Songs are rhythm of life. When alone, when in public. It is needed by Individual and Public and iske saath koi kuch bhi mita sakta hai, bana sakta hai aur toh aur chala bhi sakta. For me, music is a prayer and love it like Oxygen.

Meanwhile, a SOHAR is going to begin because I have got my seven babies so everybody is cracking jokes on my babies.Lolzz. The babies are seven rats delivered in my Casablanca :P. See you !

Only When

I drove my way to dirty roads and slimy way of banaras.All of a sudden gave a jerk full break to my scooty. Oh God ! When did the scene thats infront of my eyes happened earlier with me ... so I was thinking when did this happen for the first time with me. So take a clap, clap it and action .....a flash back fiush fiush so ....

First time eh ! when did she first time spank you :P

First time I went to school - lolololz! I wasn't cryig on my first day at skoost :P and yes I do remember my teacher who was so happy. One single child not crying and I used to sit watching what horrible things would have happened that others are crying so much. Some had those bubbles out of their nose while crying bho bho !! lol And seeing them I also started to act and deeply show that I want to cry. But dedaah ! he understood am a born actor and burst into laughing. I am literally laughing and speaking to mom on phone as well, about this :P . Seeing him laughing I too started laughing.

First Time when I asked to enter the class - May I come in miss. I thought how can ask from the loo loo itself.Got dumb me.

First time I fell into pothole while going to school.I have the photos of it ! Funny Eh !

First time I had a pet at my home. First time I wore a pant- I remember how manly I was feeling that day.hehe !

First time I was btn te deh ! Only i understand it :o(.

First time i rode a bicycle- the bycycle fell in well.But i am proud nobody taught me to zoom a bycyc.It was I and my courage and enthu to learn. Was literally ear-snatched for driving so furiously. Dekha mera talent bachpan se ubhra hua tha :P.

First time I liked someone- was 8 years elder to me.

First time I saw two lil baby sis of Mine - Richa and sullu (I was four when Richa was born, she was fully red coloured and was crying when I saw for first time, I didnt have pity on her at all. Infact I asked whoz baby is crying. when everybody told she is your sister I groan and ran away from the hospital.yes !! you can ask my family for that.I was busy looking for mom :P)
and with Sullu- Oh God ! I got my First branded job with TIME institute.The day she was born.Milky Hwite baby. I have the pic as well.

First time I liked everone.First time I won the 100 mtr race.For shashtri house.

First time i was selected for BHU National Basketball team.Phew, that was too tough. Now I have kind of forgotten how to play BKTB.First day in BHU. Gosh ! All eyes were on me.I still can't forget that day.First time I won a competition in BHU.First time I failed in Organic Chemistry :o(. I wasn't home till 8. Sat on assi ghat wondering I could be some einstein ever to qualify this.This was a series that never ended.

First time I got a job worth Rs. 4000.First time I was offered Mirchi. I jumped hopped shouted and yelled in the cyer cafe :D.FIRST TIME I SAW MICAAAAAAA...the institute that I always dreamt of.

First time I was bucked-up for a dream I just dreamt one in a millenium hours I lived.Thanx Bhaiya. I love you for that. Now I am realizing how much it takes to fulfill one big dream.

First time I S T G P...............(will never forget that, memories still fresh !)

First time I was caught stealing money was painful.First time i had my own gang.

Well life offered me a hell lot of events....But yet to wait for...

• First trip abroad
• First Husband lolzzzz ...
• First day at Graduate school(if God allowed)
• First Sky-diving and river rafting
• First visit to SIDDHIVINAYAK.
• First Meeting with my chilhood buddy, (unaware of each other's childhood though.lolzz) called Siddharth. He is the only guy from my school days who had a funny dream about me, is in touch constantly. I havent met him for long time I dont remember him other than a dress apart from school dress lol. My friend, waiting to see you soon. School days ka dhamaal waapas laayengey

And I dont think I am left out with any other remembrance of very important First Events of my life. Oh Hell...i wish I could reverse back that time.

I got a lovely message from my friend

As a child, I wanted to grow fast. Only then, today I realized Incomplete homeworks and broken toys are much better than shattered dreams and broken heart

I too, want to just reverse that time :o( ......Badly Miss you !!

Chatz O Mania

Bataoonga, puchhoonga, kese ... Oh hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!

Kese ho ! aapke show bhut achhe ja rhe hain ....!!

Just a few example to cite how and in what language people talk on chat...! Since I have been into chat for long long hours so let me share with you some chatz o maniacs of chatting !

Some people have very common language of chatting and I appreciate their quality of chatting for long hours or not,to explain this

• bataoonga instead of bataunga
• toh ko tau (attitude eh !)
• Bihari friends write tho for 'toh'
• pata nahi yaar----- pta nhi yar (they have problem writing 'a' many times)
• ya yes yeahhhh !! moo--
• and the most brain f***king dats da way it zz....Ohh hell ! feel like kicking on as* for such bad language
• ascharya hua toh HUH, HEIN EYN aayein ??kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
• :) means i am not interested in chatting.(if u see this symbol at the beginning)

SEE these technologies have made man, a food in mouth linient comfort. That will some how lead to destruction for sure.For that, I cite an example of elderly people who used to heavy physical activities....they dont get leg cramp, knee issues and all that for long time, till the age of 60. BUt nowadays, youth are getting legs cramped obesity problem and heck of life diseases(now don't think of AIDS here).Similarly this chatting system has made today's youth language sick. DA, TYM, ku, dats ...is f***cngly frustating language, in which most of the youth is conversating. Is that right ? I dont think so !

Well, imbibed are never those qualities that are good.Seldom a youth goes through a good newspaper to improve english.Often a youth talks in a language on internet to destruct themselves more and more.

Rab Rakha....

tho mein kese bataoongi ki yeh sb dats not da gud wy to tlk eh !! :P lolzz

chitan watch out !! this time no more gyaan ! blog is topic parr likhne ka mann karaa !! bass likh diya :)

Bad smell and a lovely kiss

I was a plump child. Golu polu...so was fed up of chubbying all the time..Aunties and aunties just ..
kichhi-kooed my cheeks like hell .... alley beta kitne badey ho gaye tumm...then wuff..pucched, a kiss...i couldnt speak Mom aunty's hug was smelling like pue.....imagine a baby in arms tighly held and is trying to remove its face from aunty's and still failed to...Today one of my colleague and I had an embarassing funny lil fight ... smelling each other's mouth :P after complaining mouth's smelling ooowa! then had a bite of cardomom..well with cardomom just remembered one more thing.Go watch outsourced for sure...:)

Smell is something that can give you pleasure. try this when you are so much tired, apply a pure essence or may be some nice smelling thing just below your neck, backside of your neck, it can energize you like revital ...well essence of smell reminds you, me and everybody a lot. Rememer when last time you you would have hugged your beloved ones, they carried a smell, which while taking a coffee cup at tired moment, reminds of them...LIKE I am stucked whenever someone puts Set wet Zatak....a very fond smell that gives me a mushy feeling and a few of Lomani too. I havent met many of my very very good friends ever, still I try their smell from something or the other. Sometimes looking a their faces. Do you too have a smell feeling...That reminds you of something some moment, some pals Oh God ! someimes when it rains it reminds of some tender moments...Me Deeksha Jyoti Anamika used to bully each other in rain...used to sit in room talking all vegetarian :p and Jyoti used to close her ears all the time :-) try this smell therapy

Smell is the essence of life and smell reminds me of somethings very often ..TO you too ??

I AM ENGAGED

Yes, I am engaged, engaged to whom ? Will tell you in sometime.But yesterday only dad returned from so called adventurous trip of Delhi. "Adventurous" at the age .... of I can't disclose, when he recently cut his budday cake...toh his budday candles costed more than cake. LOL. sorry for this stupid joke from Singhh Is kingg.
He began with a pityful story that was really bad.He began with an incident in PMI (NTPC's Brushing school :P for engineers)...An engineer who had come to teach a batch of Civil Engineers some AutoCAD software new version, had a big loss during the training. That guy's everything that he bought from first contract of his job, was stolen from his house. Loss came to close 2.5 lakh rupees. Which was his first purchase from his own salary.
Thats why, when one says

" Humara gamm , gamm hai baaki sab paani kam hai" is wrong ...XXX..

Humara gamm kam hai, baaki ke gamm mein bahut damm hai ...

I often see on my orkut some very common pics .. One hand punched and bleeding badly with roses on upper surface and blood ooze on other, one man punched with knife on his heart nd girl is running away, Some sad message of walking in rains and says, " so that noone can see me" :P I laugh, i really laugh at times. Because, haha ! Almost 3 or 4 years back I was in league of such people. Joining communities like

• Why do I still love
• I don't believe in love
• I still cry for you

Crapster :P. Get up and get out. First let me explain you this.

It has become a complex grid of confusing puzzle each time you fall in a relation. Love has entirely lost it's definition. It has become a national timepass of falling in love one day and getting out of it another day. Very few people know and understand it.But no ! Nowadays love is sold on a "thela"

Paanch rupiya palate, paanch rupiya palate... din bhar ka chahiye masala maar ke, raat bhar ka chahiye Mirchi maarke, Phone par ka chahiye per second cost...Bike wala chahiye, petrol per km...Aapko kaun sa wala pyaar chahiye... :P contact .....0900900900900900900 lolz ..The dialled number does not EJHIKST...

So guys just follow a trick of "MOVE ON MAN" kal gali mein aishwarya aa jayegi, Lekin no...
I feel like laughing when kids do that ..

AGE : 21

Profession: Studing (check it:- they can't even write proper spelling of it :P)

But tagline:- Why did you leave me, when I loved you so much.

Sometimes I yucks :P ..Profile of people hurt in love consists of scratched faces, dead bodies and thanx to google images a LOTS..that these pics are available with a single click.Kuch samay ke saath sudhar jaate hain aur kuch samay ke saath uss picture ko frame kara lete hain.....

Thats why I say do not expect a human being to come in your life, do a mockery or some prestidigitation and make you happy, make fake promises and one day leave you like hell.Just marry your solitude. Just work in your solitude and start loving and kissing your solitude and say I am happy in my solitude and Friends, only then you will start loving yourself tooooooo much.Just stop expectations today or else you'll be killed by your own hands and that will not be suicidal attempt when your soul will still say - Why was I killed !!?? Couldn't I have been a happier person without him or her. I had been, yes !

So get a lesson from it. Kick out the saddness out of your life because sadness makes you look ugly. How, I realized this today.Because of my very very very cute brother who visited me today after very long time. Guess what, We laughed to our guts out today. We stood and laughed at every place in mall, such that every head was turning to us, and we went mad laughing laughing.And after he left also, I am smiling with his nonsense PJs and activites, due to which I guess CCD people would be astonished :P And then I realized, happiness is not only with a person who you love as a "Better halved" but also with people who are around you and believe me, there are people who need you and are proud of you too :)...

Just believe in yourself and you can win the world BUDDY :P LOVE YOU !

And yes ! I am engaged, engaged to my solitude where I am loving myself and dont want to come out of bed when I am with my SOLITUDE (Privacy) where I am gaining confidence in myself and dont need a life of - Why, why , why ??...

Whats your status....!!@@!!

Here I begin -

Is that true..............

I got french or not .........

desperately need everything...........

nothing's gonna change my love for you........

busy ............

downloading agyaat .....

Its a beautiful day ........

This kid is just awesome.....

Offlyn you can leave messages.....

Away ....

Now now now dont push your knees so much to think about, whats that ?

These are the status messages of some of my friends online. Now I've got a window to peep in soul of such people to know what does there status means. This means I merely making a guess ?? Oh no ! I will be hundred percent right. How , i shall tell you slowly.Beggining with




Is that true..............this friend of mine would have realized something which he believed, was not to b believed

I got french or not ......... I thought is he concerned about a kiss or a beard..then he told, its about french language classes. I continued about eligibility criteria. He wondered how did I know that when its not a part of IIT :). I said I am Me .. :P

desperately need everything...........this guy has a good job and good life still he wants more..All the best :P

nothing's gonna change my love for you........puchhi my pucchi , recently got a farzi break-off from her boyfriend So its just a temporary message

busy ............a red button doesn't quench him up with showing up , that he is busy :P he needs to write that

downloading agyaat .....bechara wasting time Go watch RGV ki Aag instead

Its a beautiful day ........ Ya, it rained there in Georgia today, so shez put up the message, rujata jawar My new friend ....

This kid is just awesome.....This status message follows up a URL of youtube video featuring Damon Weaver, a kid who has interviewed the Big Shots of US. This guy's status often depicts something which he has seen and wants the world to see it ;)

Offlyn you can leave messages.....SUcks !! some people talk offlyn. In order to pretend they have too many followers but they are specially onlyn for me

Away .... no need to come back ! come on Grow up It's a gmail new version, if u r really not touching the gchat, it will become orange automatically. If its still red, Bacchu you are involved in chatting or checking mails , still pretending to be AWAY LOL.....


NOW A STATUS MESSAGE THAT WINS MILLION HEARTS.... :P

HAPPIES THE ENDINGS http:\\mirchillynidhi.blogspot.com !! hahaha ..

Thats my status message to Thank God that I am really happy with what I am getting these days and may God keep showering his blessings on me .....Hey guys keep updating ur status And I will keep on pulling my legs in you mind's window Like ....toing ??@@ ! Imagine my hairs all up and my eyes curling outwards :P.....

I want to do is this.What I want to do is this.

Ok ..

I tell you this - when I was 4 years old. I loved Naresh's job.I used preen up like his wife,Hemalata and used to run away from house, when my mom still complains about , whenever I run away now also, while shez asleep. And asked the neighbouring houses for - Memsaab Kooda de dijiye, lol. Yes I loved the sweeping job and to grow up as a sweeper was my favorite job. Lol

So when I still think and sit with a diary with a very small question where do I see myself five years down the line. Oh God ! When i was able to answer this question five years back. Why amn't I able to do it now. Where does NIdhi see herself five years down the line. Now this question haunts me. Then there arizes a dual life I am living ... Expecting to much from myself and 2nd one...expecting too much from others as well. WHy do people come in somebody's life.
See, whenever you sit back complaining about other people or praising other people. Did you ever think who they are, why did they come and why did they leave.

I tell you a big thing today.God is there for those who believe in him and has made our life a puppet show.Wherein he will bring different cast to different crew to different situation and each situation he will be putting you in will be a great learning. For all those who ever think it would be a bullshit, get your a*** off the blog ...Yaa so here I was......These kinda people come in your life to teach you give a lesson and just go away ... And has been a great learning process with them ...I thank each and every person who came in my life.....Some of them respectably taught me a lot.....

BR, SA, ST, SM, are a very few to mention thank you all .... wherever you are be happy ...

coming be to me I myself....trust me, be dreams cost a lot....it can cost you a stake of, a good family life, a good weekend and a good life...which human dreams of, after earning lots of money. So where do I see myself..

Ok herz a list of things I havent done for many years

1. Ride a horse:- When in BHU, rallies and hulla hungama went on at the time of Spandan 1 oh Gosh what the days it used be. I could give away my financial assets to get those days back again in my life.Guys never miss a full time graduate course in you life.It teaches you a lot. That season I visited NCC camp of army wing, although I hail from 7 UP Naval wing. The only girl to be selected from my batch :) . My visit to that wing gave me one the most memorable days of life and bestest buddies. Those fearless girls who used to drive me off on a horse tubduk tubduk tubduk...

2.Ride on a guy's zoom bike:- It used be class 11 12. Hell man ! I used to live a college life in my school days. And all those guys who sometimes used to offer me a drop at home free of cost. That used to be last time i rode someone's zoom zoom bike. After that a boyfrendless life :P and then a stardom, stopped me from doing this particular task.

3.Eat Eggs:- Haven't eaten after class 8th for the first and last time. Wuff, when dad came to know this, I was out of house for 3 long hours like :D. Dadaji let me in with a shuddhi and gangajal LOL.Yes ! it happened !

4. Travel for holidays:- Long long long time since family outing hasn't taken place in this Pandey Parivar>reason being interest and time too.

5.Sit alone:- Havent sat alone at a place where I can think about blackholes and blackholes where nothing can disturb my thinking.

6. And haven't experienced the essence of flying and paragliding and many other things so Its just.


Coming back to what I want to do has not been defined yet. I search my soul.I search on internet about hell lot of things out of my context too. Mechanica,l Civil interests me a lot. And anything that everybody from different parts of world, with different interest, exists.
I want leave from all this. I want some time for myself and I want a lot of time for myself to decide where I am heading


Meanwhile, I got a very good news that, I cant share now but will be sharing soon !! So just wait and watch

Independence saddens me...

Hey There,

Not later than yesterday, I was highly impressed by people and specially girls around me , writing such a wonderful blog, edit contents and add post process that goes on and on and on. So I thought Why not me ?? And anyways, that stands my favorite line, say- Try me instead of Why me to God.. Piety me !! :).So welcome you all to my blog in which you can literally abuse me :P but not offensively, lovingly. Heads this blog is the quote that will make you, ask me, a question again- Kyun Bhai qun nahi pasand tumko aajadi ... SO here I begin...

I love my mom,She stood all the way in my extreme failures to Pride of success. Quintessentially, she has been my father for five years, where I fell into wells of extreme sadness and failure to an Achievement like winning an essay writing Competition of "Times Of India Employees".There had been days when I didn't use to even pay attention to what she said. Just another typical youth defying what her mother says. So where did independence came. It came all the way when I entered a luxurious A.C beauty parlor to get ahem ahem ! thats a secret now ... I saw how nicely One of the five mothers, sitting there in parlor, was guiding the expertise of Hair-cutting, so that her daughter gets the best look on her face wtho twirling, twisting and coloring. Now another mother comes, she says beti ki engagement hai, need a fruit facial done only strawberry , coz my baby girl is allergic to other fruit chemicals :). I tried to recall when was the last day my mother took me out or vice-versa to guide my way to a good hair style or chose a top for me ? Gosh Wish i could get a bigger question mark symbol, I remember in class 9th.

The aspiration and ambitions in me took me so far and so easily and so early, but what I lost was a sheer magic and some moments of relation everybody shares in once life. I just love talking to one of my friends when he says I am with my mom on weekends.Sheh! lucky him..Sheh ! poor me....Alls my fault, I agree ! In order to become independent so fast and so soon I really was left Independent. Now that life has given me "a diamond to be afford for" happiness in profession, I became a respectable person from KUCH NAHI KAREGI Gadhi :P ... Now I miss those scoldings of my father, where he has zipped his mouth and is like cuckoo To YES to my every demand. Dad, I never wanted to this " INDEPENDENT " that no could suggest me anything. WHerein everybody started thinking She'z smart enough, She'z capable enough .. I am left with tooooooo Much of INDEPENDENCE...

Come on ! I am a human being after all, when I wish to laugh I need you , When i have to cry I need you, when i have to share every big and lil things i need you ...But all i get to hear is YOU ARE INDEPENDENT NOW..baby Act wise...Gosh please dont let this things wither away... This independence is of no use... when human becomes a machine. When achievements become bigger and more important than human. This INDEPENDENCE Is liked uptil an extent after that INDEPENDENCE sucks ... Coz too much of Independence leaves you opinionless. Then its just you you and you ... It's not done .... dependence sometimes is Important!! What Say !!